| hang my head |
[Jul. 5th, 2008|02:35 pm] |
| [ | hearing |
| | don't you evah - spoon | ] |
to do list
- ride bikes with nadine
- attempt to get dog hair off of everything i own
- sing big pimpin to said dog
- work RM
- attend 6 year old cousin's birthday party
- hand out wall-e watches i stole from work and become the hero of the party
- feel awesome because 6 year olds love me
- shower
- put crate full of books away
- call izzy/laurel
- nancy baby stychek
- help my dad plot an escape plan for zombie attack
- find interview outfit
- kill meghan
oh hey, world. how are you? |
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| turn off the light |
[Jul. 3rd, 2008|11:36 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | paper tiger - spoon | ] |
Samantha
i'm glad i have you to navigate me through this dykey world Alicia
lol
I'll be your lesbian yoda Samantha
gay you are Alicia
gay or gay not, there is no bi Samantha
super super win |
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| down to me |
[Jun. 10th, 2008|11:06 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | cripple creek - the band | ] |
oh hillary. you broke my heart, but i still love you.
there's so much that i wanted to say about why i supported her and how much it meant to me to finally see a serious female candidate for president. i wanted to say that for the first time in my life i really believed that a little girl could grow up to do anything at all, i wanted to say that i put all of my trust and faith in her, that i loved her. but i just can't make the words come out. instead, even now, i'm shaking mad at the way she was treated throughout the whole campaign. the blatant fucking misogyny. for a little while i was incredibly proud to live in america, i thought that maybe we could look beyond skin and gender and think about politics and issues. but, as it turned out, we couldn't. and i will never be proud to live in a country that focuses more on someones outfit, haircut, and fucking crows feet than her politics. it was absolutely the most frustrating thing in the world to hear people discuss obama's political experience, mccain's fiscal policy, and hillary clinton's fucking pantsuits. sometimes this country makes me loose all faith. |
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| if you could |
[Jun. 5th, 2008|11:24 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | kristin hersh - silica | ] |
When I was 5, she said, my family forgot & left me at the fair. I wandered around in the bright sounds & smells of hot sawdust & cotton candy for hours. It was already too late by the time my parents found me. I haven't been fit for decent society since.
this is what my summer will be. or i will die. |
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| all i see |
[May. 26th, 2008|10:36 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | queen :( | ] |
i picked up a lady today. at a panera bread.
motherfucking P-I-M-P
goodnight.
ps. i've taken to saying ' a pretty lady never lights her own cigarette. thank you kt. |
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| but you can't stay here |
[May. 18th, 2008|06:04 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | thirteen - big star | ] |
samantha beth shapiro
magna cum laude
suny purchase 08 |
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| young and hip |
[May. 15th, 2008|05:02 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | bizarre love trianlge - new order | ] |
dear internets and assorted loves,
after an intense bout of arguing with one (rather bitchy) professor i am now the proud owner of straight A's! yes, that's right. going out with a bang! you realize, dear world, that this means i graduate MAGNA CUM LAUDE! oh fuck yeah. for all the retarded bullshit i pull it turns out i'm actually fairly intelligent. ha! (it was kind of a shock to me too.)
alas tomorrow i graduate. i went to the store today to buy brown shoes to match my brown and yellow graduation dress and instead i bought hot pink jellie sandals. i'm going to leave college in the same exact footwear i left kindergarten in? this seems fitting, given my consistent desire to dress like a 6 year old. maybe instead of my rhoda morgenstern dress i'll wear my 'I <3 DINOSAURS' shirt. maybe.
you know, i'm going to be an adult now. or at least that's the plan. but i still really like ska and star trek. i get sidetracked by sparkles and i'll do anything if it makes me laugh. i always have dirty hands and bare feet. i talk too loud and stay up too late but never do anything productive. everything seems like a good idea at the time and i can't be bothered with consequences. i sing 'never smile at a crocodile' to myself when i get scared and i puff out my cheeks when i'm bored. i take naps and i visibly swoon. i willingly talk to strangers for g-d's sake. i guess all of this is just my way of saying that i'm scared and i feel unprepared. i'm clearly not an adult.
lovelovelove,
samantha
ps. i got bored while i was writing and made up the world's geekiest haiku!!
shatner and nimoy
observing shabbos - 'scotty,
beam me up a minyan!' |
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| count every beautiful thing |
[May. 7th, 2008|04:13 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | petula! | ] |
so the assignment was to write an essay describing the role of family in post war britian. i wrote a post-apocalyptic revenge story about aliens that came down and invaded the earth, blowing everything up and leaving us with only two virginia woolf novels describing the shortcomings of marriage and a reporter whose job it was to put together the pieces to avenge his mother who died in the struggle instead.
... i mean i wrote about family in my story.
edit- remember that time that i meant to study for my history of ireland final but instead watched riverdance videos on youtube then did a little jig around my room? that was kind of like studying, right? |
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| coming down |
[Apr. 13th, 2008|01:08 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | sore | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | time has come today - ramones | ] |
my drunken fool roommate chipped my front tooth with a bottle of colt 45.
that is the most collegiate thing i have ever written. |
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| and they don'y know |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|11:58 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | save the life of my child - simon & garfunkel | ] |
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| prayers alone |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|02:28 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | ophelia - the band | ] |
i think i can safely add this to the list of situations i will most likely never find myself in again after i graduate from college:
wake up a little after noon on a sunday, still kind of drunk, but mostly with the absolute worst hangover known to man. on the bedroom floor of a guy i don't really know (and currently cannot remember the name of) in a pile of clothes and blankets, there is a bed next to me that is holding said guy i don't really know plus my very good friend. feel instantly awkward. run to bathroom. throw up. pull contacts out of eyelids and try to figure out how they got that way. stumble to the living room where my friends are in various states of undress and awake, sit tentatively in a chair and realize i am by far the most hungover of anyone in the room, possibly anyone ever. throw up again. and then again. sustain hangover for marathon length of 11 hours. feel oddly accomplished.
excuse me while i go call my friend and apologize for throwing up so lavishly in her brand new apartment.
bed-stuy. do or die. |
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| hole in my skull |
[Mar. 18th, 2008|11:04 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | determined | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | the beer - kimya dawson | ] |
confessions:
* i really do like abba. seriously
* i think dead baby jokes are funny.
* one time, in 3rd grade, i tripped lindsay lounsbury and she got a bloody knee. when mrs.patterson asked what happened i blamed it on matt simon and he got his recess taken away.
* i pretend i don't see people with babies or that have a lot of bags when i am on the subway and don't want to give up my seat.
...sorry.
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anyway i got contacts today! so far it feels not unlike keeping a goldfish alive in my eyeball. i'm not so good at it either, i've temporarily blinded myself about 9 times already. i will get better at it though! i am determined! vision quest, ahoy! |
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| the universe is chaos |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|04:51 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | heat of the moment!! | ] |
sometimes i want everyone to know that i love them. i want to tell everybody i see that today is the best day of their life. because they are amazing and they are beautiful and they are alive.
i can't do that, it would be weird. so instead i left all of my friends a comment in their honesty box (or equivalent) telling them the most heartfelt and genuine thing i could about them. maybe that's weird too and i guess this sort of ruins the anonymity of it but i don't care. i just wanted everyone to feel good about themselves today. |
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| build our mouths |
[Mar. 15th, 2008|11:28 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | i remember you - the pretenders | ] |
today was the funeral. i hate funerals. but who doesn't, i guess. anyway if i had to hear one more time that i am the spitting image of my mother i would have just started biting people.
side note: my cousin andy married his dead wife's sister one week after his wife died in a car accident. scandal. |
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| head much lighter |
[Mar. 10th, 2008|11:39 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | laura nyro | ] |
i am wearing blue eyeliner, yellow eyeshadow and red mascara. i am primary colors!
also my chest has gotten inexplicably larger since the last time i checked, which was yesterday. why? |
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| three weeks since |
[Mar. 6th, 2008|12:24 am] |
| [ | feeling |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | doo wop - lauryn hill | ] |
i've been awake since monday morning.
i don't have time to sleep until friday night.
when i sneeze blue comes out.
the world is melting? |
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| i'm the one who loves you |
[Mar. 1st, 2008|01:22 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | the love you save - jackson 5 | ] |
best questions ever asked about me:
1) is your roommate gay?!
2) why does she keep touching everything?
3) where are all the jesus candles? |
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| mixing up the medicine |
[Feb. 28th, 2008|03:06 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | subterranean homesick blues - bob dylan | ] |
i just watched porn with lisa jean moore.
I WIN AT LIFE |
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| life will never be |
[Feb. 8th, 2008|02:48 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | dedicated to the one i love - mamas and the papas | ] |
so i'm not sure what happened exactly but... i woke up this morning with a shit ton of feathers in my mouth and a bunch more covering my bed. and my poor pillow looked so deflated and empty.
uhh, wtf? i don't remember having any dreams last night. but apparently i am either a werewolf or a feather duster.
oh, ok also this is important - i need to know who everyone's favorite spice girl was back in the day ('the day' being like 5th or 6th grade). please please please! |
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| swimming in the caribbean |
[Feb. 4th, 2008|07:33 pm] |
| [ | feeling |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | hearing |
| | dig fo fire - pixies | ] |
some weird shit has been going down in our apartment lately and if i was one to believe in bad energy or get easily paranoid then i would move the fuck out of here as fast as possible. alas, i'm not like that. i do believe in karma though, so have fun fucking with us now cause it'll be a bitch for you later. you know, kt thinks 'they' are after us, i don't think that's true. but i'm sure as hell after them.
ps. oh hey, dolly parton. radio city. march 7th. yes/no? |
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